Curve Ball

From the silence on the blog, I'm sure you've guessed there have been some issues.  In the month since my last post, Cancer has thrown us another curve ball.  Denny and I have battled his disease for the past 10 years side-by-side.  Now our enemy has found a way to divide in hopes of conquering TheWoodruff4.

Healthwise, Superman is holding his own.  The tumor is active now; his face is swollen and sore.  He is still taking the morphine and has started using the supplemental oxycodone.  Chemo started this week on Monday so he has been nauseous and not eating as well.  However, Denny is still fighting and still working around the house.  He has his garden and his jeep to work on. Until the Topotecan goes into action, he may feel a little rough until this weekend.  

There are some things that I cannot go into detail about on the blog.  This is an intensely personal issue we are battling now.  Our troubles have escalated; pitting doctor against doctor with Denny and me in the crossfire.

Bring this image to your mind.  Denny is standing on one side of the fence and I am on the other.  Picture us holding hands but neither can move to the side of the other because of the obstacle in the way.  Love is there but it is being battered by negativity: feelings of betrayal, anger, and worry.  We are working towards a solution.  The tragedy is there can be no winner. Why? Because we each love the other so much, we don't want to see them fail.  So whoever "wins" will also feel the "loss" for the other.

I am feeling the stress and anxiety from the situation now more than ever.  I am taking a hard look at how I'm doing things and resolve to make some health changes.  Stepping back from the situation, I know the long haul is going to be difficult if I'm not at 100%.  I've got work to do.

I know this post is a little different than what you are used to on the blog.  Cancer is a vicious opponent.  Not all battles go according to plan.  No doubt about it - TheWoodruff4 are in a tough place right now.  I have to have faith we will find our way through the minefield.  As I've said before, you have to go through the valley to get to the mountain top. Please say a prayer for us...

“When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it.” – Henry Ford